If I ever came across a genie who asked me to make a wish, if a shooting star beamed across the night sky and promised to grant one single wish, if closing my eyes before blowing out my birthday candle really ensured my wish to come true, I would wish that I could remember every. single. moment. That I would be able to close my eyes and remember my life like it happened just this morning. These past two years have been the best years of my short life, my only complaint being that far too many little moments have slipped into time, forever lost to the continuation of life.
This is the latter I gave to Todd this morning, my best attempt at describing how much he means to me, yet it will never be good enough because the proper words just don't exist. All I know is that I am beyond blessed and constantly thankful to have someone like him.
When I was just fourteen years old, and you said those three little words to me, my heart soared and my world changed. I knew, even then, that I was undoubtedly in love with you; that you were going to be the one I spent the rest of my life with. Even when we were apart, even when my time was spent trying to fix the hurt in my heart that nobody understood, I knew you would come back to me. I never believed in soul mates before; never thought that there was one person out there made for you, but now I know that I was wrong all along, for you are the other half of my heart. An equal part.
You understand my desire to be my own person, yet my need to belong to you. You take my dreams and spin them into reality; supporting them and encouraging me every step of the way. You laugh at my messiness and ignore my disorganization. You kiss me when I’m sad, love me when I feel so undeserving. Even when I feel as though I have failed in my responsibilities as your wife- to love, nurture, support- you look at me as though I am the only thing that matters in your life. And in the moments when you don’t know I’m watching, when I witness you lovingly kiss our son or tell him a secret only you two share, I fall in love all over again. Because while you are undoubtedly the other half, the better half of my heart, he makes up every space in between, and he would not, could not, exist without you.
I wish I could list all of the reasons I love you, but there are far too many to write; and everyday stands to unveil new ones. You have given me the best things anyone could ever receive from life. You have shown me a love that I had only read about in stories or heard about in songs, a happiness that shines brighter than the sun, an understanding that surpasses knowledge. While it may sound cliché, it is nothing but true. Everything I am, everything I want to be, everything I hope to have, belongs to you. You were my first, you will be my last, and all of those moments in between; the moments of pure joy, desire, happiness, bliss, pain, sorrow, frustration, understanding, I could not fathom sharing them with anyone but you.
Happy anniversary, my love. If the rest of our happily-ever-after goes by as quickly as the last two years have, then forever will never be enough.